Friday, February 26, 2010

I will never forget this night..It's a promise..

"Please come...I will wait for you in Japan..."

At first I didnt know there was a student division exchange meet with the students in soka university of japan (SUJ) tonight..I only got to know about it when we were having rehearsal for junior camp sketch this afternoon...

It was pretty rush for me but I told myself, no matter what I must attend this meet...Cause I wanted to feel..their spirit, I wanted to know bout student in SUJ, I wanted to know how sensei treat the students in SUJ ..through all of them..I wanted to find , something that will deepen my determination to study in SUJ...I wanted it so much...

When I reached home,it was already 7pm..I was waitin for mable to come over, and it was raining cats and dogs...I was really worried, I didnt want to late for the meeting..I didnt want to miss a single thing from them... So while waiting for mable, I chanted to gohonzhon..tat pls pls pls, rain would stop soon, no jam , smooth traffic and will reach cheras kaikan be4 8pm >< (that time was already 720pm) ....

When mable reached my place, it was still raining very heavily, I continued to pray inside my heart..I must reach be4 8 ><.. To my surprised, when I nearly reach the highway, the rain slowly stopped..! and there was no jam at all!! ..I was sooo happy and grateful, at the same time I was really excited..I managed to reach kaikan at 750pm :) , and they just goin to begin the meet ..

The whole night I was really motivated, evcited, touched and really very happy...Although I didnt get to talk much with the students..but I was really motivated by one girl..

Her name is Sampei Masako, and also called Sun, a student in SUJ, and also in my group during the small group session....She is just like her name.. Whole night I could see her smiling..and her smile is so bright, just like the sun of happiness..

She tried hard to communicate with us in her "limited" english although we had a translator in our group..I can really see that she tried hard to build this friendship with us..and I was really touched..

In the group, I shared abit bout how my feeling to sensei and told her that I wish to study in SUJ after my degree..When I heard she told us about how sensei feel for every single students there, and how he encourage each and everyone there..I cried abit, because I feel sensei's heart too..Although Im not in Japan, I can feel that sensei is doin the same thing to me too..I can feel it through the students from SUJ..Because sensei's heart is the same to all..

When I said I want to study in SUJ, D said that actually its gettin really competitive..There are 14 ppl applied for SUJ this year and onli 6 successfully gt into it.. My faith gt beaten down abit when I heard that..But straight after that , "You must gambate! " said Sun.."You must come to SUJ.."..I controlled myself, not to cry ... "haik! I will" I answered...

After the session, be4 we left...Sun came to me and took picture with me..
She then hold my hands tightly..."Please come ...I will wait for you in japan.." She said..
Such simple words, but strong, and sincere...
"TQ.. I will learn japanese language well, and I will go to SUJ ."..I told her.. and we smiled...
This is a promise...and it will be the best encouragement for me.. and I will never forget bout tonight...

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Think about it..:)

A friend told me about his dream …and to my surprise, that his dream is that world war can happen once more, to change everything, and start from beginning…I was really shock to read his reply on msn..and it makes me think..Why he would said that..he then continued, that human will not change, if they don’t lose something, or in pain…just like ppl changed after tsunami..
Although he then said its impossible for him to achieve this “dream”..but what I see is the thinking, the mindset..I don’t blame him, but thank him for bringing this out, to let me realized that there are ppl actually think that way..I believe that he’s not the only one who thinks like this ..(to this friend of mine, no offence k:) )

To me, happiness is the main purpose of living..right? Who is born for purpose to suffer? Everyone hope to become better, hope to be happy..and happiness is the final goal for humankind..But why does war exist? And why does some ppl will think that war can bring changes?

There are still wars happening around the world, btw countries, races, religions…but what is the fundamental reason for all wars? Issit to achieve happiness of all people? Or mainly just for the fulfillment of egotistical desires and impulses?

“Nothing is more precious than peace. Nothing brings more happiness. Peace is the most starting point for the advancement of humankind. “ (Daisaku Ikeda)

Some ppl who seen war stories in the movies or TV may have been impressed by it..finding it somehow attractive and feeling that the actors looked glamorous and brave. The reality of war, however, is completely different. It is cruel and filthy and filled with sadness and misery. Anyone who has actually experienced war knows it must never be repeated. No matter what justifications may be offered, there is absolutely no such thing as a just and correct war..Each person who has died in war was irreplaceable and precious, they are someone's wife, husband, child, friend...It is more than just numbers...

Natural disasters such as floods or earthquakes cannot be prevented by human reason or wisdom. But problems that are caused by human beings themselves can be resolved by human beings. Human's heart is powerful, it can cause the worst...but it can also cause the best...If wars are created by human, then peace can be acheived by human too! That is the power of human spirit..which has been forgetten by most of us long time ago...

"From a healed, peaceful heart, humility is born; from humility, a willingness to listen to others is born; from a willingness to listen to others, mutual understanding is born; and from mutual understanding, a peaceful society will be born. Nonviolence is the highest form of humility; it is supreme courage. "(Daisaku Ikeda)

Supreme courage...We can find thousand of reasons to talk bout what is happening to ppl nowadays, how futile ppl can be, how bad is the society turning...but most of us failed to take out courage to speake out for peace. Instead of againsting the wind and the waves, most of the people follow the current of ignorance, current of believe that peace is impossible, current of hopeless , current of being realistic..etc...But VERY few, have to courage, to create current towards peace..

Peace can never be attained by passively waiting for it. It is necessary for each of us, no matter how weak we feel we are, to build deep within our hearts to hold strongly to peace..

"Peace is not found somewhere far away. Peace is found where there is caring. Peace is found when you bring joy to your mother instead of suffering. Peace is found when you reach out and make an effort to understand and embrace someone who is different from you" (Daisaku Ikeda)

Real peace starts from our daily life, how we treat ppl around us, how we treat out family, friends, environment...It is not something far apart from us, it is with us, in us...

At the end, maintaining hope no matter how dark the circumstances is very important...Martin Luther King Junior once said, "I have a dream..." a dream that whatever might happen today or tomorrow, whatever difficulties and failures he might face, he still had a dream...

Mahatma Gandhi said, “I remain an optimist, not that there is any evidence that I can give that right is going to prosper, but because of my unflinching faith that right must prosper in the end.”

I am really glad , to be a Soka Gakkai member..and have Ikeda sensei as my mentor ...because I am with the good organisation, we promote peace, through culture , dialogues and education.. Because of Sensei, and Soka Gakkai, great great current towards peace is created..There are too many discourage voices out there..that is why this current towards peace, must continue to bring forward by us, youth, new generation...

Hope, is what we must have, and what we must give to ppl...
And changes, starts from no where, but ourselve... Finally, I would like share this song with all of my friends..Michael Jackson's "Man in the mirror"..(Love this song..the lyrics is so meaningful :)
Few hours ago, something happened and made me very very depressed...and I was filled with sadness and anger...while crying infront of the pc and writing my blog bout my feelings, suddenly a friend msg me in msn, out of no where we were talking bout passion, and dream..

I stopped writing my blog for awhile, and asked him what is his dream about.. and his answer surprised me..and made me think...

I soon clicked to my blog, deleted the post(half-way typing), and started with a new post...because of his dream, I realised that there are more things to concern about.. and the things that I was depressed, sad, angry about was really not a problem..It could be a big matter, just because my heart is not big enough, my visual is not wide enough, for the world...

Bout my friend's dream, I'll share in the next post...:) hope you guys will read and think about it ..

Tuesday, February 9, 2010


People are illogical, unreasonable,

and self-centred.
Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will
accuse you of selfish ulterior motives,
Do good anyway.

If you are successful,
you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be
forgotten tomorrow
Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness make you
Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas
can be shot down by the smallest maen and women
with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.

People favour underdogs but follow
only top dogs.
Fight for a few underdogs anyway.

What you spend years building may
be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.

People really need help but
may attack you if you do help them.
Help people anyway.
Give the world the best you have
and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you have anyway.
(Paradoxical Commandments by Dr. Kent M. Keith 1968)

I came across this beautiful piece when I was reading a book, and it makes me think about the people nowadays... There are so many people, have lost their passion for so long, over reality.

Human without passion, will be just like robot. Whatever we do we just follow the routine, there is no soul nor passion in the things we do. Like work for the sake of working, busy for the sake of money, hang out for the sake of not being lonely... but no value

"Wei, very sien ar.." , "Boring ar..." , "Life's sucks wei" , " I feel so lonely, empty, I need a gf/bf" ....Does it sound familar? I'm sure we heard that alot from ppl around us, or maybe from ourself... So sad but so true, so comman that you can hear it over and over again from people... Why is this happening? Is this it? Life is just like that?? Hell no! Life is not suck, life is wonderful..Its just us, how we view our lives..
Every moment of our lives is like a TV channel. When you tune into documentary channel, all you see are documentories. When you tune into MTV, you see music videos. Every thought of us determine.. It is like frequency, when we have negative thoughts, everything around us will be negative.. If we tune into "Sien-ness" channel, every moment of our time is SIEN ! (boring)

The difference between good and evil is :
- one has perfect control of all forces within him/her
- well the other is dominated and controlled by the forces ..
So? Which channel do you wanna tune into?
It is so important to hold our passion tight with us.. "Passion" on its own is neither good nor bad. It depends on what we apply it. If we apply it with anger, greed, jealousy, insecurity..then we are directing ourself passionately into sorrows, blames, failures....

Live out our passion , and not just dream about it. Merely wishing brings nothing but disappointments. If we have our dreams, we must be PASSIONATE about this dream, dare to dream, and never give in to reality... bout create, changes, action, and revolution! And history is created by us..
Youth, never to sit and wait, and follow the discourage mindset by "most of the people" ..
Find back our passion, in whatever things we do..whether you're working or studying , passionate to people, passionate to things around us, passionate to create value, passionate to encourage people.... PASSION is our weapon...
You pursue your dreams with great passion
and intensity but it may turn out sour.
Be passionate anyway!