Appreciate, and thankful, for that little time I have to be with you

Lazy afternoon, been spending my whole day lying here in my living room, with my darling apple(my dog), on9 and reading books..Ive a stack of books beside me..but just manage to read one of them..and still reading it... And my mom is sleeping in the 2nd living room, usually Id be in my room..but today I moved my laptop and books to the living room..and do my things down here..

I was waken up by my dad's voice this morning..called me up to bath and get everything ready to pick up my mom in clinic, and depends whether need to send her to hospital or nt..I was blur(huh?wat clinic?hospital..?)....sleepy(so tired...><)....shock! (wat??mom in clinic??!!)

I quickly got off my bed n rushed into his room to ask what was goin on.. My mom kept vomiting this morn..and stomachahe and dizzy, my dad had sent her to the nearest clinic d..

When we reached the clinic, my mom was in the emergency room, I went in with a bottle of hot milk , and saw her lying down , her face looked pale..i was worried...
I sat beside her, she said she was cold, I hold her hands in the blanket, "Its ok ..Its normal to feel cold when u hav stomachahce.." I didnt know whether its right or not but I just didnt want her to worry so much..

She closed her eyes tide and was trying to get some sleep...I prayed in my heart and watched her face..I felt a sudden pain in my heart, watching her suffer makes me suffer too..she's already 64years old..Holding her cold hands, I some how hope that the pain could be transfer to me..atleast half..so she wouldnt be so pain..
When me and my dad were on our way to clinic be4, my dad said ..

"..Your mom is gettin old, she's already 64 you see...In malaysia normally ppl live til 70 or 70+.. she survived her cancer in 2002, now its already the 8th year...

You hav 3 more years to graduate..and she will be in her 67.. How long more you can take care of her, "hao sun" her....."

I kept quiet...I understand what my dad was tryin to tell me..He just want me to be prepared to accept things that might happen in the future.. ..

I didnt dare to hold my mom's hand too tight, I was scared to let her feel my fear and worried...I combed her hair with my fingers gentle, it reminds me how she helped my to tie my pony tail when i was a kid...Time really flies, I gt shocked when i see myself already turning 21 this year, and it hurts me when i see my parents are gettin old ....

When we are spending more time on our work,college,uni,..friends, hobbies..or bf/gf...Have we ever wonder how much time we actually spend with our parents?.. we can even spend hours hanging out with frens..but we have no time to dine with our parents..we can spend whole night ot in office, but we have no time to talk to our parents, and we can talk to our bf/gf over the phone till morn 2am but we have no time to call our parents for 15min..

Some of the people i know hav never watch a movie with their parents in cinema before..I find it kinda sad.. Or never speak to their dad or mom much?..like just hi and bye, yes and no, want and dun want...etc..... Sometimes just little caring, time , can make things much more better..

Sometimes I think people just take parents for grounded..Because we know that tat whatever we do, our parents will still be there for us..We have NO TIME, but we think that some other time we can spend a day with them...So we rather put our bf/gf, heng dai, ji muis, frens first..

Have a look at our parents, they are not the same as last time alreayd..they are getting old..i mean..look properly at their hairs..their hands...and when was the last time you hold their hands?

Back to a the word.."Appreciate"....Appreciate our parents, and be thankful.. not only because of what they've given you, but because they are still here,still by your side...and you still have that little time, to care and love them...